Friday, 12 March 2010

Balance




Shaun came back from his trip on Sunday night and we had to go straight to his company leaving party. Some of his soldiers were getting deployed this week and that was the last opportunity for the whole company to get together. It was very emotional for me to be there and listen to all the speeches but it was a good night.

I am finding it extremely difficult to juggle all the things in my life at the moment. I need to get that right balance that I am always striving for but it's not easy. Work has been quite busy lately but I enjoyed facing some new challenges at work so that was not really a problem from me. However, when I get home from work all I want to do is spend time with Shaun. When he is away I am totally devoted to my work and training and I hardly miss a workout and if I do, it is usually because of a late night in the office. But with Shaun's leaving date fast approaching I find it soooo hard to come home, say hello to him and head upstairs for an hour on the computrainer. When I know that in 3 weeks time I will be all on my own and would dream of the evenings spent together. Last night, for example, I had a 90 mins workout on the trainer but on my way back home all I wanted was a nice evening with Shaun. So I skipped the workout and we went out to a nice Mexican restaurant for a dinner. I felt really guilty about it but we've had lovely evening so why do I feel guilty?

Anyway, I have talked him into riding with me tomorrow so at least that is one way of getting the balance.

14 comments:

Jennifer Harrison said...

I know! NOT easy...but I think you are right, spend some quality time with Shaun now...and keep training of course, but if you get an opportunity to get out with Shaun, then GO. You won't ever regret that! We can figure it out! :)

D said...

Harrison couldn't have said what I was thinking much better. Don't feel guilty about missing training... it's only an "extra-curricular". Shaun is what's really important right now so get in all the time you can.
Look at it a different way - feel guilty if you skip spending time with him instead of skipping workouts.

Beth said...

OH I would totally skip workouts to be with my husband if I knew he was leaving soon. Enjoy your time together and try not to feel guilty - I know, easier said than done! Thinking of you guys!

Angela and David Kidd said...

If JH says it's okay, it's okay! Go spend time with Shaun. The training will always be there.

Molly said...

Jen is right - enjoy it now while you can!!! Glad he is home safe and sound and you've got him around for a bit!

Marit Chrislock-Lauterbach said...

Hey ADC - I was just thinking about you the other day... we're pretty much in the same boat. Nate just got home today... and will leave in about a month for pretty much the same duration as Shaun. And - training-wise.... I'm EXACTLY the same. Its hard to get into the groove of training or thinking about other "stuff" when you've got a looming deployment on the horizon. And those pre-leave gatherings can get tough, especially when the Advanced Party takes off. Don't feel guilty about the workouts - I've been through my own rollercoaster with them...Jen understands. Hang in there - the next few weeks will be tough - but after he leaves you'll find that balance and time will pass quickly. And yes - the same advice I'm giving you, I'm trying to apply to myself... NOT always easy :) I'm thinking of you and Shaun... hugs to you both!!! Seriously - we need to chat and catch up!!!!!!!!

SSB said...

Definitely go and spend time with your husband, even if JH says it's not okay ;-)

Kim said...

Don't feel guilty my dear! Enjoy this time, you'll never get it back and it enhances your relationship.. without that, you wouldn't be the same athlete. Trust yourself, attempt to find balance and there will be plenty of time to train when he leaves! Thinking of you!!

Heidi Austin said...

you poor thing.... it makes me sick thinking about them leaving:( spend time with your husband! and you shouldn't feel guilty about it at all. training will always be there. i'm sure your balance will return soon!

Mer! said...

Definitely worth skipping the computrainer....you're right in a few weeks you'd be kicking yourself for not going out with Shaun to the restaurant.....hard because you're like the rest of us, "type A/never miss a workout"....but, in reality, your emotional well-being at this point is most important.

I've been in your shoes (two deployments-one of which to Iraq)---and I hate this time----and I wish for you it goes quickly and slowly all the same...and so you can begin the countdown until he's home. I still can't write or talk about these times in my life without tearing up....I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy....

Sending you strong vibes and thinking of you!!!

jennabul said...

Ah, you did the right thing. Time with your husband is important too. Good luck.

時尚 said...

我真心在追求我的夢想時,每一天都是繽紛的。因為我知道每一個小時都是實現理想 的一部份。 ....................................................

jessithompson said...

always seeking balance... i totally get that.

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